From the Heart
I was catapulted from a cannon,
I’m heading into space,
the catapult was so right for me,
I leave without a trace.
I had walked along a tightrope,
threw skittles in the air,
balanced a ball upon my nose,
while standing on a chair.
The catapult is quick you see,
just sends me right away,
goodbyes are not necessary,
won’t go back another day.
I left the circus in the past,
didn’t much care for the place,
I’ll embrace the world from now,
without a painted face.
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I’m climbing quite a bit, into the loft, up ladders and onto chairs. I’m dismantling my home, but each time I climb I tell myself I’m moving onto the next chapter, taking the step I’ve needed to take for so long. I am quite literally climbing into my future at the moment, though it’s not in the dusty loft or on the top shelf it’s out there waiting for me.
Big changes are ahead, I’m going to live the life I want and love. I’m going to do what I want, work in what I love and enjoy every moment of it. What’s more I’m going to be so happy that it will be catching.
The last few years have been tough, but needed. I’ve survived and found myself in the process. They say that the biggest changes in our life often come after major upheaval, crisis and everything as we know it breaking down, bloody hell do I believe that!
I feel like I’ve been tested too, I’ve been offered choices and when I’ve taken the wrong one, I’ve soon found out. An easy get out maybe, an opportunity to good to be true, countless job offers that for one reason or another have fallen through. Now I know which direction I’m heading in and I’m not going to be swayed again (please universe, no more tests, I get it!).
I’ve rented a little place along the coast, that’s where it begins but from there I will travel, I can’t not. A lot of my things will go into storage, that’s causing some confusion, there are things I want near me but I’ll get over it.
I had my birth chart done recently, it was an amazing experience. I’ve had it done before but this particular friend is an amazing astrologer. She spends so much time explaining what it all means that it slaps you around the face and becomes part of you, it comes to the surface in a way that is hard to explain, you begin to live it. We did a swap, I helped her with business ideas and social media which she couldn’t get her head around and she did my chart. I love my chart, it shows the potential I was born with and I’m not going to waste it.
I have so many more steps I need to climb but first I better getting on with packing up the past!
Daily Prompt – Climbing
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Imagine if there really was no such thing as time, everything was and is happening at this precise moment in some form and you could go anywhere, where would you go? If I could take you somewhere, back in the past or into the future, where would it be? A past life maybe, somewhere to perhaps remember the lessons of that life or into the future to see where you might end up in say five or ten years or even into a future life. Wouldn’t it be interesting, maybe we would recognise each other in another form or those we know today?
I went for regression therapy myself after my mother died, I couldn’t come to terms with her death and was in a state of grief. It had always been something mum wanted to do herself, on her bucket list so to speak so I thought I’d give it a go myself. I was taken back in this life, taken just a short while back and then further to the point of my mothers death. This might sound morbid but it was something I couldn’t allow into my thoughts, I was I suppose in a state of denial. Seeing it again, or rather viewing it from another point of existence sort of made it real for me, I cried buckets as you can imagine but I accepted her death. I went back further to a teenager, oh how I felt sorry for that poor girl, know all know nothing I think the term is, I loved her anyway, I think she needed that. I went back to being a toddler, felt the enormous love of my mother and to a baby in the womb listening to my dad sing. This might seem far fetched to those that won’t allow their minds to travel this way but to me it was cathartic and healing. Even if my body was just lying on that couch, my mind was able to expand, travel and heal.
I travelled back through other lifetimes, some of no interest, I looked on detached from what I saw. One woman, who I believed I was, I had no time for, she was bitter and twisted and had wasted her life. I experienced her as an old woman and felt there was not much else for her to do with that life but die and try again in another life. I found myself as a doctor in one life, looking at my shoes I was amazed to find myself as a man, he is my favourite so far, he kept a journal of his findings and died with the journal open next to him on the bed. Would you believe I found him the next day on the internet, he looked exactly the same and when I read about him it was the same as I had learnt during the session, mind blowing!
So what can we get from past lives, I think lots of lessons. As much as I loved the doctor, loved the fact he wrote and was passionate about his lives work, I also understood his loneliness, he had sacrificed family, never marrying or having children being married to his work. I learnt from him about balance, to be committed to your work might be wonderful but make room for love. In this life as much as my career has been important, never more than my love for my family and friends, they will always come out on top.
Recently I’ve been into the future, or the best possible future to how I’m living today. I’ve been forward five and ten years and it’s fascinating. I can see potential and possibility, it has given me, above all, hope. I’ve trained as a Past Life Regression and Future Life Progression (FLP) practitioner now, another tool for my box of tricks and I’m having fun experimenting with my new found skills. If I can help people see possibilities then that has to be good.
I think both the past and future can help us make sense of the present, I think we can understand the lessons in this life that sometimes seem pointless or cruel. I can see why some people appear to have it all and others nothing at all but do believe in balance as in some way or another, life or lives will even out.
This post is not in any way meant to offend, I’m not pushing any beliefs on anyone as I believe being present in the moment every bit as important, I’m just curious and for me I’ve found these therapies helpful in making sense of now. So if you could go anywhere in time, where would it be?
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As we open the gate to the future,
to a life we have yet in store.
Cross that threshold to tomorrow,
so today will be no more.
We’ll trust in what is yet unknown,
just to leave it down to faith.
A hope that we will find our way,
with a prayer for human race.
Leave behind what we conquered,
with those things we didn’t do.
Stepping through to another day,
and everything changes but you.
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How far do we actually go. Do we ever really go much further than the surface, staring through murky waters, looking for answers. Are we just floating on the surface like the leaf on a pond. I suppose that would depend on if we are looking up at the tree we fell from or on to where we might be heading.
~Liza
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I’m scared of seeing myself honestly,
for the person I truly am.
Without the props and dressing up,
I really don’t think I can.
That’s not your plan for me today,
you insist I look in the mirror.
The mirror of truth to introspect,
bring the self a little nearer.
Fear in my heart, a shortness of breath,
I just want to stay in bed.
Hide myself, keep eyes shut tight,
each moment filled with dread.
I’ve prayed, begged and cried,
what more can I do so you’ll listen.
Give me more time, let me linger here,
please don’t let me loose my position.
Your pulling me now, there’s no turning back,
then over the edge do I fall.
My wings open up, I’m starting to fly,
all the fear led to nothing at all.
We’re told time is of the essence, a fact the whole world knows.
We read the time the same old way, as those days so long ago.
Time’s still measured by the hour, which is sixty minutes long.
Once the hands go round the clock, you know your hour’s gone.
Time here on earth has great control, as it measures everything.
From the minute the bank opens, to how long he might be king.
It can be seen in days and years, a number we spend on the earth.
Counted up on that final day, since the very moment of our birth.
They say that time is all we have and one day it will be to late.
As time runs out on earth too quick, each of us have this fate.
Just a blink and the day has gone, I really don’t know where it goes.
Time is quite extraordinary, in that it always seams to go.
But what if time is all made up, just an idea made of man.
What if there was no such thing, since all of life began.
What if it all happens now, or maybe in some parallel.
From birth and through to dying, honestly who could tell.
What if we turn off the clocks, or simply turn them back.
Would the world stop spinning, would that be the end of that.
What if we just thought of now, for us to get things done.
With no time to worry us, would it be so much more fun.
What if we could travel back, or forward just the same.
Make amends and put things right, even wipe out any pain.
If everything just happens now, and not in some place else .
Wouldn’t now just be space, to make the most of ourselves.
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Dearest universe, could you please oblige,
and help me find my way.
I find inspiration comes into my head,
but nothing really stays.
I want to apply myself and be worthwhile,
try to do some good.
I’d love to write about love and kindness,
I’m also told I should.
But that’s a dream and a hobby too,
not how I will live each day.
I want to work with what I love,
but also something that pays.
I like to create and I like to inspire,
I like to help people recover.
I understand trauma and listen too,
I’m a bit of an earth mother.
Can you direct me to where I should be,
send me on my way.
In anticipation, with kindest regards,
oh, please don’t you delay.
Does the flower know where it is heading when it reaches up to the sky, does it know its purpose and destination. If nature can tell us anything I think it might be reach for your dreams, be open to experience and give your very best.
~ Liza
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If I could take you to your future,
would you want to go.
Would you walk the path with me,
to see what it would show
Could you find that dream in you
and take us both to see.
Could we step into that land,
what will you show to me.
If I could help you paint it,
would you use the brush.
Would you paint the scenery,
clear without any fuss.
Can you tell me how it sounds,
can you hear the tune.
Listen very carefully,
you’ll hear the music soon.
If you could introduce me,
to the people up ahead.
Would you hear their laughter,
can you tell me what was said
The futures but a step away,
you’ll see it’s outline soon.
Prepare your heart for happiness,
you must make sure there’s room.
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