Finding Buddha

Do you ever ask ‘who am I’ or ‘why am I here, what is my purpose’ or any number of questions that might establish what an earth we are doing here? I know that a lot of people don’t, many are more concerned with the everyday, how much money they have or where they are going on their summer vacation, but it’s a question I’ve always asked, it fascinates me.

I believe the purpose of life is to find ourselves, mature along our spiritual path, find our true selves and that is not the self we create in this body. I believe it is in realising ourselves, our real identity and inner spirit that is our ultimate goal here, to find ourselves in this labyrinth we call life.

We create personalities based on our experience of life, environment, relationships and the things that happen to us along the way. I believe we have travelled many lives and therefore inhabited many different personalities but there is a true self that travels with us, a self separate from the ego, yet often out of reach.

When I ask who am I, it is because I am questioning what I am outside of the ego, outside of life. I’m looking for my spirit, the one that travels through time, space, thought and lifetimes. This body I’m travelling in now is just a vessel, it holds my spirit while I’m here, but that’s all. If I wasn’t in this body I think I would still be here but in a different form, a purer, more knowing form maybe.

I practice past life regression, I’ve been regressed a number of times now and regress others and one thing I have found interesting in all of these regressions I have never found myself knowing who I am. I have never regressed anyone else to a point in their past life where they felt they had the answers. I still hope to find myself somewhere knowing more than I do now but I’m not sure it’s possible. Maybe we keep coming back until we find ourselves and then maybe move on elsewhere, if this is the school of life maybe we move onto university on another astral plane. Some of the personality traits, fears and beliefs come from past life experiences and it’s useful to recognise and understand these to release blocks we might have now.

I have never heard of a regression therapist finding Buddha or anyone else like that, usually we are just normal everyday people, please let me know if you know any better. I was a doctor once, I found myself after on the internet, I looked exactly the same as during my regression and the story was the same yet I didn’t know any more about life. I might have had a fantastic brain when it came to medicine but I didn’t know any more about myself. Those people who think they might have been Cleopatra or Nelson usually just lived in that era and probably never met them, the recollection of the past life is just connected to the time and not the figure.

I also practice future life progression (FLP) but I have only ever wanted to move forward in this actual life, I haven’t wanted to explore lives ahead, not just yet anyway.  I think FLP is a great tool in helping us see our way forward, I think we can bring things back that help us get there quicker and understand the way but for me this life is enough at the moment.  I have witnessed and taken others forward to future lives, one guy described being able to communicate telepathically and travel by thinking he was there, it is fascinating but not for me yet. You see a small part of me believes that if I find myself in the future it will mean I’m still searching for meaning. I’m not suggesting that I think for one moment I will understand all there is here, reach enlightenment and never have to come back but I’m hoping I’ll get closer.

I have moments of awakening, in my dreams, in meditation and on walks through nature but then the ego steps in and says ‘oh no you don’t’! I’m hoping to get there at some point, I’m hoping to get closer to knowing who I am but for now I’m just on the cusp.

Daily Prompt – Cusp

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Where would you go?

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Imagine if there really was no such thing as time, everything was and is happening at this precise moment in some form and you could go anywhere, where would you go? If I could take you somewhere, back in the past or into the future, where would it be?  A past life maybe, somewhere to perhaps remember the lessons of that life or into the future to see where you might end up in say five or ten years or even into a future life.  Wouldn’t it be interesting, maybe we would recognise each other in another form or those we know today?

I went for regression therapy myself after my mother died, I couldn’t come to terms with her death and was in a state of grief. It had always been something mum wanted to do herself, on her bucket list so to speak so I thought I’d give it a go myself.  I was taken back in this life, taken just a short while back and then further to the point of my mothers death.  This might sound morbid but it was something I couldn’t allow into my thoughts, I was I suppose in a state of denial. Seeing it again, or rather viewing it from another point of existence sort of made it real for me, I cried buckets as you can imagine but I accepted her death.  I went back further to a teenager, oh how I felt sorry for that poor girl, know all know nothing I think the term is, I loved her anyway, I think she needed that.  I went back to being a toddler, felt the enormous love of my mother and to a baby in the womb listening to my dad sing.  This might seem far fetched to those that won’t allow their minds to travel this way but to me it was cathartic and healing.  Even if my body was just lying on that couch, my mind was able to expand, travel and heal.

I travelled back through other lifetimes, some of no interest, I looked on detached from what I saw.  One woman, who I believed I was, I had no time for, she was bitter and twisted and had wasted her life.  I experienced her as an old woman and felt there was not much else for her to do with that life but die and try again in another life.  I found myself as a doctor in one life, looking at my shoes I was amazed to find myself as a man, he is my favourite so far, he kept a journal of his findings and died with the journal open next to him on the bed.  Would you believe I found him the next day on the internet, he looked exactly the same and when I read about him it was the same as I had learnt during the session, mind blowing!

So what can we get from past lives, I think lots of lessons.  As much as I loved the doctor, loved the fact he wrote and was passionate about his lives work, I also understood his loneliness, he had sacrificed family, never marrying or having children being married to his work.  I learnt from him about balance, to be committed to your work might be wonderful but make room for love.  In this life as much as my career has been important, never more than my love for my family and friends, they will always come out on top.

Recently I’ve been into the future, or the best possible future to how I’m living today.  I’ve been forward five and ten years and it’s fascinating.  I can see potential and possibility, it has given me, above all, hope.  I’ve trained as a Past Life Regression and Future Life Progression (FLP) practitioner now, another tool for my box of tricks and I’m having fun experimenting with my new found skills. If I can help people see possibilities then that has to be good.

I think both the past and future can help us make sense of the present, I think we can understand the lessons in this life that sometimes seem pointless or cruel.  I can see why some people appear to have it all and others nothing at all but do believe in balance as in some way or another, life or lives will even out.

This post is not in any way meant to offend, I’m not pushing any beliefs on anyone as I believe being present in the moment every bit as important, I’m just curious and for me I’ve found these therapies helpful in making sense of now.  So if you could go anywhere in time, where would it be?

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Walk into the Future

 

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If I could take you to your future,

would you want to go.

Would you walk the path with me,

to see what it would show

Could you find that dream in you

and take us both to see.

Could we step into that land,

what will you show to me.

If I could help you paint it,

would you use the brush.

Would you paint the scenery,

clear without any fuss.

Can you tell me how it sounds,

can you hear the tune.

Listen very carefully,

you’ll hear the music soon.

If you could introduce me,

to the people up ahead.

Would you hear their laughter,

can you tell me what was said

The futures but a step away,

you’ll see it’s outline soon.

Prepare your heart for happiness,

you must make sure there’s room.

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