Trauma

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Our trauma is not obvious,

so everyone can know.

It’s usually buried deep inside,

too far to really go.

Jumps up when we are unaware,

and slaps us round a bit.

Dives back before we notice,

it’s always far too quick.

We feel it in our stomaches,

we feel it in our heads.

Never really leaves our mouths,

there’s nothing to be said.

If we knew what it was made of

we would have it in our net.

But moments we remember,

are easy to forget.

And so we keep it buried,

while it’s silent and asleep.

The monster of experience,

the one we have to keep.

The Question

 

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If love is the only answer

Why does everybody not just love

If love is the only answer

Why is there so much hurt in the world

If love is the only answer

Why do so many need healing from trauma and pain

If love is the only answer 

Why do we trade in currency and material objects

If love is the only answer

Why do so many not listen to each other, the universe

If love is the only answer

Why do we not see what is before us

If love is the only answer

Why is there loneliness when there are so many people

If love is the only answer

Why do I fret for my child’s future

I guess love is the only answer 

Me

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So you think you understand me,
and you know what makes me tick.

Well I’d say that you are very wrong,
with assumptions far too quick.

Yes, I am an inspiration,
while muddled and confused.

I really haven’t worked it out,
to say I have would be a ruse.

Understanding me, you see,
I’ve been trying for so long.

To think you have it sussed in days,
is clearly very wrong.

So put away the ideas you have,
and start again with me.

I’m deeper than you think you know,
and more than you can see.

Daily Prompt – Open

It isn’t any wonder, that I listen with contempt

I never really have much time for those who will pretend

I see right through the fairy tales, I know that they are lies

Just tell it straight, don’t hold it back, its fibs that I despise

How ever hard the words appear just say them as they are

Open, frank and honest please and we’ll go very far

Held Aloft

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I’m beside myself with worry, this really can’t be right,
I dreamt a plane was crashing, I dreamt it late last night.

I know it’s not an omen, I hope so anyway,
as I’m flying off myself soon, in just a couple of days.

Why can’t I dream of riches, of love and spiritual paths,
instead of things like crashes, with memories that last.

I know it’s because I’m packing now, I know this is the way,
it’s guilt about the fun I’ll have, I’m sure that’s what they’d say.

So I will buckle up my seatbelt and think of better things,
and pray the plane will hold us up, I’ll really watch the wings.

I have set my new  intention, to only dream of love,
avoiding cheese, crossing hearts and sending prayers above.

Sending Love

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I’m sending love across at you, it’s painfully clear to see.
That you need help, to be wrapped up, by someone more than me.

Your terrified of looking up, your posture tells me so.
I guess your really struggling and wanting to let go.

We’re in the doctors waiting room, and there’s another three, 
I hope they call you in soon, you can go in front of me.

I want to cry at what I feel, your pain is clearly deep.
Your eyes, your face, the whole of you, it makes me want to weep.

I pray that you will smile again, I pray you will survive, 
I know this isn’t any way for one to be alive.

I hope the doctors helpful, that he doesn’t send you off,
without the building blocks you need, to hold yourself aloft.

I wrote this after visiting the doctors this morning.  I saw this guy there and my heart went out to him.  I was thinking if everybody who reads this attempt at poetry sends him a bit of love it might just help.  If it creates a picture in your mind, then maybe with love, it can create healing and recovery for him.   I live in Brighton, Sussex so imagine him there and send your love.  Thanks x

Is it Over…

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I really tried to tell you, explain to you my path,
I only wished you listened, you really make me laugh.

Having all the answers, although you didn’t see,
the very subtle changes, that were happening to me.

Drifting up two different roads, traveling separate ways,
I hardly think you noticed, when I was gone for days.

So now you want to real me in, tell me that you care, 
tell me that I have it wrong and you were always there.

Well my love, my golden boy, I really thought you knew,
that you and I and all that jazz, are well and truly through

Thought Shower



The whimsical ramblings on my blog site,

mainly assist me to see the world right.

To process my feelings, work out what’s inside,
these deep set emotions I often can’t hide.

I feel invisible here, it’s a safe place to be,

not many of you would know the real me.
But that’s an illusion, I just worked that out,
as twitter is linked, I will soon be found out.
Do I really care, is this my real truth,
to be appreciated  as me and like myself too.
I’m enjoying myself and making new friends,

the benefits of blogging don’t seem to end.

Prayer for the Hopeless

I ask to be as slim as when I thought that I was fat

Those days of long gone by, when I thought that I looked crap

Oh to fit that little piece, I kept in posterity

Who would ever have thought it once looked good on me

 

The years pile on my waistline, however hard I’ve tried

When I try to pull my jeans up,  they hear a random cry

I have to accept this padding, as it refuses to go away

I wish, I pray and hope that it will be fashionable one day

 

Night Visits

 

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You watch me from the landscape at the end of the bed

With dots that gently glisten, I’m sure not in my head

I see you when I first wake and in the times between

Dots that seem to join you up, although your not quite seen.

I wish you’d form a little more so I can clearly see

Your face, your eyes and all of you watching over me

I know you come in love and light, that your intent is true

I only wish I was certain, that it is really you.