Tag: awake

Sleeplessness

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Night falls and darkness comes,

cars slow on the road below.

Shadows making pictures now,

for the walls to put on a show.

My monkey brain is shouting,

so much louder than the day.

As much as I want to go to sleep,

this buzz will not fade away.

Just an hour ago I was tired out,

I could hardly keep my eyes open.

The thing I asked as I retired,

was one night with sleep unbroken.

Now my legs just want to dance,

like those shadows on the walls.

Ideas I had and somehow lost,

it’s just now I find I’ll recall.

I turn my head and turn it back,

as I need those pillows cold.

Throw the bedclothes on the floor,

it’s not that I’m being bold.

Oh sleeplessness I hate you so much,

I’ll never welcome you in.

Perhaps I’ll make a milky drink,

no maybe I’ll go for the gin!

 

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I’m guessing you know when I wrote this!

Awakening

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My awakening has been subtle,

just creeping up on me,

it wasn’t so instantaneous,

where I could suddenly see.

More like a silent creeper,

entwining around my heart.

Now I find where I was blind,

I now know where to start.

I don’t feel that it’s enlightenment,

I’m just far more awake,

as in this physical body,

there’s decisions I should make.

I feel that I have woken up,

connected much more to source.

There’s still so much I have to learn,

that’s obvious of course.

Now that I have woken up,

I’m much happier with my life,

I can look from outside myself,

no longer drawn to strife.

I sit in silent contemplation,

on that, that I don’t know,

allowing feelings to come up,

to see what they will show.

When emotions come to surface,

I see what they will say,

acknowledge and allow them in,

for a while they’ll stay.

It’s really just acceptance,

of the soul I truly am,

there is no rush or certain time, 

in which I should understand.