There is a time machine for sale in the local junk store and I’m thinking of buying it. There is a disclaimer taped to the top that advises the machine should be used for display purposes only and that any time travel is at the owner’s risk. I wonder about this, I’m buying it to travel back in time so it needs to work.
I want to go to a few different places but I need to get back from each of them to move on to the next. Or maybe I will go from one to another and come back to today when I’ve had my fill. Whichever way I choose to go I want to be certain I can come home.
I have some things I want to say, things I should have said first time around. I want to let a few people know they are special, that they touched my life. I realise I can’t make any huge changes, I need to get back to now but the little things I want to do and say won’t change the course of history.
I’m going to become a time traveler, I wonder if it will change me, will I still be the same person on my return. I will admit, I don’t know an awful lot about time travel, science has never been one of my strengths. I’ve watched a lot of Dr Who and loved The Matrix, so hopefully I will be fine.
I won’t be visiting family, the people who shaped me, that could change things forever. Anyway they are here today and the ones that are not know how much they meant to me. The people I’m visiting might not even remember the events I do, but I want to tell them what they meant to me.
I want to go back to Mr. Khan’s history classroom. That week when I was leaving school and he kept me behind. I remember he said to me that I should use him for a reference if I needed one for a job. He told me that many of the teachers had little time for me and probably wouldn’t bother. He said he saw something in me, to give his name. When I was in that job, because of his glowing reference I wished I had said thank you that day. I probably did, I had manners even then, but I want to be able to go back and say thank you with feeling. I want to go back to that room and tell him I did well, I did eventually get my head down to study and that I have always remembered him.
I would like to be sitting on the bench with Mr. Davis when he dies, I don’t want him to be alone. I want to tell him he made me happy, he made me laugh as a teenager and how sad I was that he was alone in the world. I want to tell him I asked my mum to pray for him the night he died and that he was added to her prayer list. Thing is with mum, once you’re on there you don’t leave so she has being praying for Mr. Davis for thirty odd years. I think Mr. Davis would like to know that.
I want to go back to the girl we teased and called flee bags. I want to tell her I knew she didn’t have flees, I was being a sheep. I want to ask her if she would like to play with me and be my friend. But most of all I want to say sorry for not stopping the bullies. I hear she is happily married with a family. My mum says she is a lovely girl, who stopped and gave her a hug last time she saw her. I want to thank her for that.
I would like to smile and say thank you to my husband the day he said he was leaving. Tell him it was the right decision, that I’m not as sad as I think that day and that my life has been just great. I would like to suggest we forget the arguments to come, lets not have them. Because in twenty years when we meet again we will realise we have grown into totally different people. Some things really are good for as long as they last.
I don’t want to keep going back in time forever, I need to enjoy today. So I need to make sure that the things I say today, and from now on, are thought about. That I let people know how special they are on the very days they are special.
Where would you go?