My ego is like a dog I took in and agreed to care for but no longer want or love. I understand now why I allowed him in to my life in the first place. I see the appeal, walking around with him gave me status, I stood out from the crowd or at least I thought I did. I used to feel safe with him, I felt protected.
I’ve changed my mind now, I think he is preventing me from growing and doing the things I want in life. He’s constantly hungry, paws at me to remind me of his existence. He wines and interrupts my meditations even when I lock him out of the room, he can be heard whimpering under the door. He follows me around like my shadow, it’s an unhealthy relationship as I’m always giving into him. Ego sleeps at the bottom of the bed, he’s the last thing I’m aware of as I go to sleep and as soon as I wake in the morning he’s there, on me, he needs feeding and petting immediately.
My ego is big and extremely protective, he doesn’t want me focussed elsewhere, if I try to spend time with myself, he constantly whimpers. I’ve decided we need to start some training, he needs to be able to give me the space I need and I need to be able to put in the boundaries he needs. If we are going to continue to live together, we need some rules!