I’m having the weirdest dreams and I’m finding them exhausting. I’m waking up like I’ve done a days work and I’m getting to the point that I’m dreading going to bed.
The night before last I was caring for a baby all night, it was a fitful sleep with me waking hourly, but each time I went back to sleep the baby was still there for me to look after. I felt I was sharing the bed and wanted to make sure the baby had enough room. He was tucked in the snug of my arm, well in my dream because of course the baby wasn’t really there. I felt such responsibility towards this little child, it’s crazy!
Last night my dreams were taken up with an older lady who was obviously confused as she said she was my mum. She wasn’t my mum, but she wasn’t taking any notice of this fact. It got so confusing I wondered if she was in fact my mum in disguise, however they were of a totally different race, mum white and blond, this lady dark with strong features and hair as black as coal. Anyway she wouldn’t go away, she told me she died in June and I should know this already, she kept talking about dates I should know too which were the 11th and 23rd June. Of course, I know my mum died in October and was very aware of this in my sleep, telling the woman she was wrong and I wasn’t her daughter. I suppose the dream could have been about separation and loss as I have been thinking a lot about mum lately, but she usually looks exactly like mum in my dreams.
These are just examples from the last couple of nights but it’s been happening for a while and it’s getting crazier and crazier. I know my maternal grandmother had visitors at night, people standing at the end of the bed who she told to go away. She would wave her arms and shout at them, she didn’t know them and didn’t want them around but they kept coming back. At the end of her life she started to recognise the visitors, her parents, siblings and husband.
I don’t want to consider my dreams are anything like my Nan’s as these visions happen when I’m asleep. I do believe in spirit and know my family are around me, but these dreams are different. I’m so tired and achy today, I’m going to try a different bed tonight and see if it makes any difference.
I just thought this blogging community might help me work out these dreams and put them to bed! Do any of you have such weird dreams? If so what have you done about it as I really just want a good nights sleep?