Looking for Inspiration

lizaaitken

I’m finding it hard to be inspired by where I live now. I moved here a month ago, it’s pretty enough, you’ve seen some of the photos I’ve taken of the canal and beach but it doesn’t speak to me. I’m okay, I’m plodding along doing my thing but I’m not struck by inspiration in the slightest.

It’s the energy of the place I think, it’s slow and if I’m honest a little dull. It’s temporary, always was in that I’m not staying long, but it’s certainly not me. Now for the positives, it’s slowed me down, got me more in touch with myself. I spend long periods alone and I’m benefiting from them. I’ve lost an amazing 4lb’s in weight as I’m not socialising which is a big plus if ever there was one. I’ve started a course and I’m loving it, it’s got me to pull out some old books and I’ve lots of new stuff to learn, I have the time too without distractions.

Energy is a funny thing, I think it’s affected by so many things. The people here seem very insular, I walk down the canal saying hello or smiling at people I pass, the number of them who look at me as if I’m mad or pretend they didn’t hear me is weird.  They look at me like I’m crazy, like I’m from another planet, but it’s not me it’s them. On the other hand I do talk to a lot of dogs, dogs aren’t fussy. The High Street is boring, there is nothing that calls me. Yes there’s a post office, bank and chemist but there isn’t anything that interests me. It’s old and I suppose quaint and the folk around here are pretty proud of it, it has a number of visitors but there is nothing that calls me. Is it the people or the energy of the town, I don’t know but I’m not keen.

I’m spoilt I suppose, fifteen years living in Brighton with all it’s vibrancy and style. I was brought up in London and I’m pretty well travelled, yes I’m spoilt and if I’m honest a little fussy. As you know I love nature and I can certainly appreciate the beauty of my surroundings but there’s something missing that I just can’t put my finger on.

I’ll ponder a while on it and carry on spending time on me, pamper myself maybe 😉

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Mother, daughter, sister, cat owner/slave. Thoughtful about life and trying to make it worthwhile.

13 thoughts on “Looking for Inspiration”

  1. London too busy for me, but Brighton as busy as it is, I don’t feel closed in. When passing by people, I feel we all have our own space and depending on the time of day, I have found my own quiet spots. If it busy, some of those spots still feel like my own while either taking the scenery in, people watching, or reading a book.
    As you have been living in busy areas and Brighton being vibrant, you will feel it is strange I imagine with all it a little slower and quieter. It will probably take some getting used to for you. But as you have found, you have found other positives about it. Enjoy the new studying too. 🙂

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  5. I can SO relate. I am currently also in a place that I find sleepy and uneventful, its lethargic energy affecting me in a way I’m not too happy about. There are things I appreciate about it, and like you, it has gotten me to get to know myself better, in ways I probably wouldn’t have if I were in a vibrant place (with plenty of distractions). But, no matter how hard I try to embrace it, focus on the positives & keep myself busy, in my quiet moments I have to admit that something is just lacking. I can’t wait to go home! 😌 Meantime, we’ll just have to make the most of it 😉 Good luck to you!

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